Multiple Sclerosis: Why I am Not Keeping It A Secret Anymore!!

Multiple Sclerosis

I have Multiple Sclerosis!! There I said it and WOW the world didn’t come to a stop. Ok now take a deep breath in and exhale. Funny how after keeping that a secret for 20 years saying it out loud didn’t change anything.  The world is still rotating, I am still here and well the cat still doesn’t find me any more interesting than five minutes ago.

So why say anything now well I mention back in December that this was the year I was going to get healthy physically, financially and emotionally. To get healthy emotionally I have to face my inner demons and talk about things that normally I would never talk about.  That includes admitting I have MS and that I am a disabled woman who need a little help her and there.  It also means talking about how Ms affects my life and how I have learned to live with it.

But first we need to discuss what MS is first.

Multiple Sclerosis

What Is Multiple Sclerosis

Multiple sclerosis (MS) is an unpredictable, often disabling disease of the central nervous system that disrupts the flow of information within the brain, and between the brain and body. that’s the official doctor terminology for MS. In basic everyday talk it means the brain and the body are fighting and refuse to speak to one another.

Ms is considered an ‘Invisible’ disease because on the outside all appears normal but inside the body is attacking itself like it’s gone to war. Getting a diagnosis can be a lengthy process and if like me it hits hard and fast recovery can be a long road.

Multiple Sclerosis

My Story

It began in April of ’95, April 5th to be exact i was driving home from a field trip I had been on as a chaperone when I started to feel light-headed and sick. By morning I so sick i could barely move. Nothing would stay down and my left side was numb. Husband rushed me to the ER where they diagnose me with food poisoning and sent me home with medicine. I got feeling a bit better during but when the medicine ended I relapsed.

But in the ER the doctor decided food poisoning wasn’t it so they admitted me to the hospital and started testing. During this week I was given steroids and antibiotics. I started feeling better. I went home thinking I got this. I over came but as soon as the medicine stopped I relapsed. this time the relapse would be unforgiving.

Within 24 hours of stopping the medicine I was so weak and unresponsive I didn’t even realize the paramedics where in my house. With 48 hours I had slipped into a coma. the doctors told my family plan her funeral she won’t be coming home. I was on life support. My body was lifeless.

One doctor stepped up asked if he could treat me like I was his daughter and leave no stone upturned. My family agreed and the testing began. Thankfully I was out of it for most it so the pain was bearable. two weeks later after 100’s of test and a cocktail of drugs I would open my eyes to realize I was paralyzed. i could only move my eyes nothing else. I still had a feeding tube, monitors  and wiring coming out of me everywhere. But I was alive something the admitting Doctor could not believe.

I was told soon after waking I had MS and that in time I would regain some use of my body but that I would never walk again. I was also told that the life I had been gone. Any thought of children, traveling, even feeding myself were no longer an option. They basically told me my body was broken.

What they didn’t know was that my mind and spirit were not broken. With hard work and determination I was going to get back my life. It would take a year with 6 months of those in the hospital but I learned to walk again.

Multiple Sclerosis

Once life started to look normal again and I realized that my chronic illness was something I could feel but it could not be seen I decided no one needed to know, I was determined to live life to the fullest.  In doing so I have pushed myself beyond my limits on days and I learned to play off things that didn’t seem right. Little things like stumbling or forgetfulness i told people I was clumsy or getting old. Whit each cover up or lie if truth be told I lost a piece of myself. I began to realize that i was ashamed of who I was and was uncomfortable in my skin.

Then one day I woke up I didn’t recognize the woman looking back at me. I let my chronic illness steal the life I had dreamed of away from me. I decide then to take back control and in order to do that I had to stop hiding and face my darkest fear and that was admitting I had an illness.

Hello my name is Rebecca and I have Multiple Sclerosis.


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Rebecca is a boy mom, traveler, Disney addict, chocolate lover, and tea drinker. She lives in Florida and enjoys good food, good music, and a great book. Her goal in life is to live in the moment and to always be open to new things.


  1. Thank you for sharing your story. My brother has MS and was also told he would not walk and to say good bye to the life he had. He like you dug deep and found the determination to walk. He is healthy and has a very active life. He has his days but overall is doing very well.

    • That is wonderful he is doing well. I to am able to do most things but some things are no longer an option. So happy to hear he is living life to the fullest.

  2. Thanks for being brave to share your story now. I am happy to hear that you are taking your life back and not letting MS hold you back anymore!

    • That you your support is is a great gift to me. I am grateful for it.

  3. reesann723 says:

    My neighbor has it and I see how much she struggles at times. You would never know it if you didnt know her though. Thank you for sharing your story.

    • thank you for you support and I hope you neighbor is well. I send her my god wishes.

  4. Thank you for sharing your story. Sometimes, acknowledging a disorder makes us feel more powerful. That’s how I was with my anxiety, as well. Some days, I cannot leave the house. Invisible disabilities can be crippling.

    • Wow i didn’t know. You have my prayers. Thank you for the kind words you’re correct acknowledging it makes it have less control.

      • I don’t talk about it much, either. Invisible illnesses carry such a stigma to them. Thankfully, true friends are supportive. I think that’s one thing those of us with these kinds of illnesses learn – who our real friends are.

        • Yes we do. It’s why my hubby is my best friend as everyone else has faded away.

  5. Wow, I am in awe of your strength! I think speaking out about something like this is so important. There is no reason to hide this battle, and you will only gain support and help others.

    • Thank you for your kind words. The support means everything.

  6. Woohoo! I am so glad you finally told your story. I was completely taken back when I read last month about this. You are a warrior

    • thank you for the support. It is only moving forward from here.

  7. Ashley Mullins says:

    This was so brave of you to share your story!! I’m sure you’ve had some relief and empowerment after writing this. Good for you for pushing through life and making lemonade out of life’s lemons.

    • Thank you for the support. Your words are encouraging and I appreciate the support so much. Plus lemon-aid taste better than lemons.

  8. Rebecca, I am cheering for you right now. I can’t believe how much you have survived but I am amazed. As one who struggles with chronic illness (though MILD in comparison), I am inspired and glad to know your story.

    • Thank you. I send good wishes and prayers to you that your illness does not keep you from living life. I truly appreciate the support and encouraging words.

  9. Claudia Krusch says:

    It must feel so good to not be holding that in any more. I have a friend that suffers from MS. I really hope they can make some advancements in research.

    • Me too. I pray for a cure daily. Thank you fro the support.

  10. Cristy Ridey says:

    I was diagnosed with MS in 2009 after a month in the hospital, brain surgery, and a trip to the Mayo Clinic.

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